Thursday, April 20, 2017

Gatsby Chapter 9 Journal

Chapter 9

“Most of those reporters were a nightmare-grotesque, circumstantial, eager and untrue.” (C9 171)
He describes the reporters as grotesque, just like he described the rose.
“Mad man” (C9 171) “deranged by grief” (C9 172)
They are depicting wilson as a crazy person to keep the case as simple as possible
“But there was nothing- only the picture of dan cody, a token of forgotten violence staring down from the wall” (C9 173)
I feel like gatsby is nick's dan cody
She told me without comment that she was engaged to another man?” (C9 185)
Why does he act like he cares that much? I don't think he wanted to marry into the corrupt world.
“It was all very careless and confused. They were careless people, tom and daisy- they smashed up things and creatures and then retreated back into their money or their vast carelessness or whatever it was that kept them together, and let other people clean up the mess they had made..” (C9 187-189)
What is it that keeps them together?

What makes them think they can do whatever they want and mess up others life.

Is it because of the world they live in?
“The party was over” (C9 188)
N0w that gatsby is dead, the party is over, and no ones cares about gatbsy anymore.
“Gatsby believed in the green light” (C9 189)
Daisys green light gave him hope, something to look forward to.
“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.” (C9 189)
Life goes on- we all thrive until we realize that we are just repeating the past

Monday, April 17, 2017

Gatsby Journals 5,6, & 8

Chapter 5
“He was pale and there were dark signs of sleeplessness beneath his eyes” (C5 89)
We’ve never seen this side of gatsby. Intersting how crazy the thought of daisy makes him
To my overwhelming surprise the living room was deserted.” (C5 90)
Why did gatsby leave through the back and come around to the front and knock on the door? Did he get cold feet?
“Gatsby, pale as death, with his hands plunged like weights in his coat pockets, was standing in a puddle of water glaring tragically into my eyes.” (C5 91)
“Glaring tragically” ???

This is really good description of gatsby and how nervous he was about seeing daisy.
“His distraught eyes stared down at daisy who was sitting frightened but graceful on the edge of a stiff chair.” (C5 91)
“Frightened but graceful” !!

Maybe this is showing that she is frightened by the sight of gatsby but she is happy to see him?
Daisy’s face was smeared with tears and when I came in she jumped up and began wiping at it with her handkerchief before a mirror. But there was a change in gatsby that was simply confounding. He literally glowed.” (C5 94)
What caused this change in gatsby?

What made daisy all of a sudden sad and gatsby undeniably happy?
‘I'm glad, jay.’ Her throat, full of aching, grieving, beauty, told only of her unexpected joy.” (C5 94)
This sounds sad and happy all at once? What's the tone behind this?
“ possibly it had occurred to him that the colossal significance of that light had now vanished forever.” (C5 98)
The green light was always this huge symbol of his love for daisy, now that he has daisy it has no significance.
“Gatsby didn't know me now at all.” (C5 102)
Interesting because at the beginning he talked about how relatable and familiar gatsby was. It seems it was all a show. (look back at pg 57)

Chapter 6
“The truth was that Jay Gatsby, of west egg, Long Island, sprang from his platonic conception of himself. He was a son of god. (C6 104)
Gatsby created this image that he wanted to be, and became it.

Is this bc he wasn't happy?
“They were a satisfactory hint of the unreality of reality” (C6 105)
What does this mean? “Unreality of reality”
or perhaps I had merely grown used to it, grown to accept west egg as a world complete in itself, with it's own standards and it's own great figures, second to nothing because it had no consciousness of being so, and now i was looking at it again, through daisy’s eyes. It is invariably saddening to look through new eyes at things upon which you have expended your own powers of adjustment.” (C6 110-111)
West egg is a world of it's own.

Why is it sad looking through daisy’s eyes?
she saw something awful in the very simplicity she failed to understand.” (C6 114)
Daisy's mind is too elaborate to understand such simple things?
“Suck on the pap of life, gulp down incomparable milk of wonder.” (C6 117)
Life is incomparable
“Then he kissed her. At his lips touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete” (C6 117)
Daisy changed because of gatsby

Chapter 8
“It excited him too that many men had already loved daisy- it increased her value in his eyes.” (C8 156)
This totally contradicts what he was saying in the hotel, he didn't want anyone loving daisy besides him.
Eventually he took daisy one still october night, took her because he had no real right to touch her hand.” (C8 156)
Gatsby felt unworthy in the eyes of daisy, this is why he took her? This is why he desired her so badly
She vanished into her rich house, into her rich, full life, leaving gatsby- nothing.” (C8 157)
She left him, to go back to her world, with out a 2nd thought. Her life revolves around this world
He felt married to her, that was all.” (C8 157)
From the moment he met daisy, he felt so close to her. She was a huge part of him, before he even met her.

This makes loosing her so much harder
“I have an idea that gatsby himself didn't believe it would come and perhaps he no longer cared.” (C8 169)
Did gatsby actually give up on daisy?
Would she have ever called him?
“The holocaust was complete.” (C8 170)
Why the word holocaust?

Holocaust is defined as destruction/slaughter on a mass scale

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Gatsby Journals: Chapters 2-4

Chapter 2
“But his eyes, dimmed a little by many paintless days under sun and rain, brood on over the solemn dumping ground.” (C2 28)
I feel like the big eyes, watch over everybody and the valley of ashes. There is definitely big symbolism there
“Her eyebrows had been plucked and then drawn on again at a more rakish angle but the efforts of nature toward the restoration of the old alignment gave a blurred air to her face.” (C2 34)
There is a reoccurring theme so about appearances. These people will do whatever it takes to look good, and be seen a certain way. They care alot about what other people think
^ “ all they think about it money.” (C2 35)
They use their wealth to achieve this desired look and status
“ i'm scared of him. I’d hate to have him get anything on me.” (C2 37
Gatsby is seen as this scary powerful man, but there are only rumors about him, no one actually knows what he's like
“Yet high over the city our line of yellow windows must have contributed to the share of human secrecy to the casual watcher in the darkening streets, and I was him too, looking up and wondering.” (C2 40)
Nick too, wonders who this mysterious man is that lives next to him.

It's like how gatsby looks out at the green light and questions it

Chapter 3
“I believe that on the first night I went to gatsby's house I was one of the few guests who had actually been invited. People were not invited-they went there.” (C3 45)
Why did gatsby personally invite nick? What was so important that gatsby had to invite him?
“Sometimes they came and went without having met gatsby at all, came for the party with a simplicity of heart that was it's own ticket of admission.” (C3 45)
People don't come to the parties for gatsby, they came for the party and then left. Kind of sad
“When i was there last I tore my gown on a chair, and he asked me my name and address- inside of a week i got a package from croirier's with a new evening gown in it.” (C3 47)
Why does gatsby go out of his way to please these random people?

Does he just want them to be happy so they'll keep coming back?
“ but no one swooned backward on gatsby and no french bob touched gatsby's shoulder.” (C3 55)
Gatsby is kind of a loner. You would think that since he throws these big parties for everyone they would worship him.
“ Don't give it another thought old sport. The familiar expression held no more familiarity than the hand which reassuringly brushed my shoulder.” (C3 57)
It's interesting that nick feels so comfortable around gatsby's after just meeting him.

Why is gatsby so relatable and trustworthy?
“A sudden emptiness seemed to flow now from the windows and the great doors.” (C3 60)
Once the party is over, gatsby's mansion becomes just a big sad house. I think gatsby throws the parties to fill some void

Chapter 4

“You see I usually find myself among strangers because I drift here and there trying to forget the sad thing that happened to me.” (C4 71)
I knew there was something he was trying to cover up wit the big parties... what is it though?
“ and for a moment I was sorry i’d ever set foot upon his overpopulated lawn.” (C4 72)
Nick is now regretting ever going to gatsby's. I can't tell if this is selfish or reasonable because gatsby is basically just using him
“ they shook hands briefly and a strained, unfamiliar look of embarrassment came over gatsby's face.” (C4 78)
What about tom, made gatsby be embarrassed?

Maybe something to do with daisy?
“The officer looked at daisy while she was speaking, in a way that every young girl wants to be looked at.” (C4 80)
The officer (gatsby) is in love with daisy, but he loves her from afar.
“Gatsby bought that house so that daisy would be just across the bay.” (C4 83)
This is why gatsby always looks out across the bay!!
“ he wants to know- if you'll invite daisy to your house some afternoon and then let him come over.” (C4 83)
This is what gatsby wants with nick, he invited him personally to the party so he could get close to him to get close to daisy!
“ i think he half expected her to wander into one of his parties some night.” (C4 84)
He throws the parties in hopes of daisy coming to one of them.. So cute
“There are only the pursued, the pursuing, the busy and the tried.” (C4 85)
Daisy is the pursued and gatsby is the pursuing.

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

The Great Gatsby: Concrete Poem

Concrete poem of book cover:

  • The chaotic city in the distance
  • The blue in her eyes, like water with someone swimming in it
  • The darkness in her face
  • The tear falling down her face
  • The sad face
  • The loud, fast, city
  • Is this the American dream?
  • Chaos, wealth, success, sadness

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

The Color of Water: Chapters 24- 25 & epilogue

Chapters 24-25 & epilogue

“ his paper work from 45 years ago , the notes and papers he left behind reveal a man in constant thought...” (C24 250)
That so cool that he can look back at his dad's stuff and get a sense of what he was like, because he never got the chance to meet him and see that for himself.
“Sometimes we think if we could just go back in time we would be happy . But anyone who attempts to reenter the past is sure to be disappointed.” (C24 250)
This is one of james’s dads writings.

I think it gives a good sense of what he was like. I also just really enjoy this quote.
if it takes as long to know jesus as it took to know you, I think i'm in trouble” (C25 261)
I think he is saying it took him such a long time to realize what his mother was actually like.
“ I had to find out more about who i was, and in order to find out who I was, I had to find out who my mother was. (C25 266)
James admits that his quest to find out what his mom was like, was driven by him trying to find himself.
“Quit them all” (C25 262)
I think the reasoning behind quiting all those jobs, was because he was lost as a person, he needed to find who he was before he could find his job
It was a devastating realization, coming to grips with the fact that all your life you had never really known  the person you loved the most.” (C25 266)
This is actually crazy! I couldn't imagine going through this
(C25 275) list of kids achievements and educations
I love seeing this and knowing that she raised such successful kids with little to nothing, and in a black community being white.
“ she was standing in front of the synagogue entrance, staring up at the doorway from the sidewalk, lost in thought.” (epilouge 285)
I think this shows that her jewish heritage is still a big part of her life, even though she always appeared to hate it

Friday, February 24, 2017

The Color of Water: Chapters 21-23

Chapters 21-23
“You want to go to college? I'll send you to college in Norfolk. Or business school, whatever you want, but you have to stay” (C21 215)
Why did her father want her to stay so bad? And what was it that made ruth want to get out of their so bad? Why couldn't she stay?
“ If you marry a nigger, don't ever come home again. Don't come back.” (C21 215)
How did he find out about this?

Crazy that he would disown his own daughter just because she loved a black man.
“Dennis overheard my aunt mary say that tateh had put out a detective to look for me.” (C21 216)
Why would tateh send someone to look for her knowing that shes with a black man, and he doesn't want her to come home if shes with dennis?
“ I kept saying ‘ why couldn't it have been me that died?’” (C21 217)
I wonder if she regrets leaving now that mameh is dead?

I think I would somewhat blame myself
“ ‘Why did they all leave?’ i asked. ‘Why stay?’ he said (C22 225)
This is kind of like what ruth thought, there was so much better beyond suffolk
“All the rules and religions in the world are secondary; mere words and beliefs that people choose to believe and kill and hate by. My life won't be lived that way, and neither, i hope, will my childrens.” (C22 229)
The trip really benefitted James. He went back to how he was raised and realized he didn't want to live that way anymore, nor have his kids that was. He learned to embrace life and humanity.
“I walked into the hallway of our building and this black woman punched me right in the face.... ‘That white women don't belong here’” (C23 231)
It shows how much they were willing to do to fight for what they had. Despite everything people did to them.